she gave you everything
everything like a cliche
like everything that she knew and that she didn't know
that everything that she could
and the one that she couldn't
she gave you everything
the vitamins to bare the hunger
the proteins to bare the pain
the carbs to bare the tiredness
she gave you all of that
all of that
except the water to bare the tears.
she told you go...
go...
wherever you want.
but she didn't tell you to come back
she said go...
go...
and you went too far...
you got lost
lost everywhere...
anywhere you would go.
she gave you freedom of speech
but she kept her silence
she made you a liar
and then she doubted you
she made you weak enough
to blame her for your faults
she said go...
but she forgot to ask "do you want me to come with you?"
even if she did... you would say no,
because she just told you to go.
she gave you everything the wrong way
and you forgot to put it together.
she gave you the freedom...
the freedom to be, to say, to do...
so you did, you were... too much
yet... not enough, never enough...
you were never enough
she let you smell every dusty corner of the world
until you got intoxicated with every little ash of dust
she gave you all the freedom to want
so you did, you wanted it all
but she forgot to say go...
she forgot to look in my eyes ...
... and say go
she never insisted.
WHY? WHY? WHY?
she didn't know how to...
she never did
she gave you her best,
and you made it your worse.
she made her your idol
she scared you with her brilliantness
she made you powerless to say i love her
because she forgot...
... to sow things together
she forgot to put it together
she shaped you to be strong
and then she kicked you
she made you want more
because of what she couldn't give you.
eventually,
she gave up.
she was brilliant
but she never said i love you.
