before that ride from one place to the other...

i’m on my way to craziness,
    to nowhere actually

i’m burning in heaven
    waiting forever
        for that never to happen

i’m nowhere here
    not even near
        of a possible life
floating in wheels of will
    crawling in muddy sand
        going from one home to the other

one more time in a thin line
fragile as an in love heart

bleeding love everywhere
    jumping from smile to smile
        building a heaps huge pile…
of nothing… of life.

words are never enough, april 2012 melb

if your mind could ever understand your heart

if your heart could ever feel your mind

you would have it all

you wouldn't want as much

you would only desire

you would no longer have the power

   of not knowing where you belong

you would dance with your soul and not your body

   in a dark room with no walls or ceiling

you would look up and yell for heavy rain

   you would beg for pain

you would have no fear

   and be the weakest man on earth

you would ask for questions

   and fight for a struggle

you would run backwards

   you would walk upside down

you would crawl for a different perspective

you would struggle to dream

   and have nightmares all night

you wouldn't even cry

   WHY? why cry when you have all the answers

you wouldn't know where to look

   where to go, where to be...

      what to be.

you would wish to die

  WHY? why be alive when you have all the answers

you would feel the uncomfort of certain

   and whisper for a lie

      for some kind of reason to be angry

you would finally belong no where

   besides in yourself

you would trust doubt

   and swing in waves of nothing

you would speak to yourself

   there would be nobody else

if your mind could ever understand your heart

if your heart could ever feel your mind...